You have your highs and you have your lows. It's all a part of life. So the last couple week or so was a very low time for me. I was sick physically and mentally. I was rather depressed I kind of hit a sort of rock bottom and called out for help. The song healing begins really helped me through it. Things are really starting to look up again and in the dark time I got to courage to call out for help and it's getting better!! I have some very good friends and parents that helped me through it.
Since finding out my date that I'm coming home. I've been thinking a lot about it. The sad reality that some of these friends that I treasure so much I may never see again and I may soon be forgotten. Sometimes while I'm with them I just try to memorize their faces so I never forget them. I don't do good with the reality that friends come and go. Every friend I make is special to me and I don't do good with goodbyes. My departure date is actually a month earlier than was exspected because of my passport expiring halfway through July and the only people going up to the states leave very beginning of January but Donna is actually getting a WATER girl at the beginning of July so I'm not really as needed as much then. Looking back, my time here is actually relatively short but I'm glad to have been able to help out where I could and I've experienced and learned so much. It's funny how if you put yourself in a different position than normal you start learning stuff about yourself and you start growing and changing. I'm not quite the same girl I was when I came down here.
1rst time:
waking up with a huge cockroach on me
Baking a pie
Taking care of a handicap child
Changing a dirty diaper
Going to a Mexican doctor's office
Making meals daily for people.
Having little brothers
Going to a children's home
Playing soccer with Mexican children
Making tortillas
Eating Mexican food
Listening to this much Spanish
Sewing my own skirt
Eating field corn.
Attending a quinceañera
Taking care of a house for 2 weeks.
And others I can't remember at the moment.
One sad thing that did happen while I was here was a man from the church had a puppy that was sick. So we kept him on our roof to keep him away from other dogs. He became my fast friend. One day he got to close to the edge and fell off and ended up breaking his leg and we thought he was dying from internal damage. I thought they would have to shoot him. I'll admit I cried. But they decided to wait and he ended up pulling through and is doing so well!! *happy dance* he jut went home the other day!! :)
What happens next??? Well Mexico has taught me a lot! I'm not entirely sure what comes next. Except Lord willing I will start the process of entering collage as soon as I get home. If all ones as planned I want to look into getting a bachelors in English. Which kinda blows my mind because English was not exactly my favorite subject. I admit I'm quite nervous and scared but also excited to be able to work toward getting my bachelors. Hehe I always said I would never go to college. Right now I'm looking into working with college plus, taking clep tests and online classes and maybe some classes at HACC. We shall see. I'm still new with this whole college thing. I'm hoping to take my new love for preparing food and use it even more at home and get really good at it. I'm really learned to enjoy cooking. Especially cooking cultural foods. There are some issues in my life that have come to my attention and I'm hoping to maybe see a counselor for a little bit. I think that could do me some good. I need to find a part time job. I'll probably look into cleaning jobs cuz I heard those are pretty flexible with college life. I've decided to downgrade to a cheap dumb phone that meets my basic needs as college bills are going to start arriving. I've learned down here that shockingly you can live without a smart phone!! :O
Well the Yoders have left for two weeks vacation so Anthony and I are holding down the fort here. And then at night Vaughn comes and stays here with me so that I'm not by myself. Don't tell them this but I woke up Monday morning and was like *sigh* I miss the Yoders. :) Vaughn and I have taken over the parents room cuz they have AC!!!!! It's such a beautiful thing since the weather has been peaking at 106 lately. I was afraid I'd get bored with all the Yoder's gone but I've found myself rather occupied. Vaughn captured a hilarious picture of me trying to wash my couch cover in the shower. And I'm taking care of all the animals and plants and cleaning. Today I'm taking care of Boni for the last time as his caretakers are getting home from their two month break on Saturday. And yesterday was a interesting day for me. As some of you know I got bloodwork done on Friday and I've been kinda aloof as to why I got it done. Well my mom contacted me last Wednesday saying she had talked with her friend and that her daughter was struggling with some of the same physical issues I've been struggling with. Mom suggested that I may be dealing with under active thyriods. I immediately looked up the symptoms and immediately hope filled my heart. Had we finally, finally figured out what I've been struggling with. When I saw the symptoms my mouth dropped. I dealt with almost every one. I was floored but I dared not hope cuz I was tired of getting tests done and spending my parents money only to find out that there is nothing wrong with me even though I knew something wasn't right. Anyway I found out that it would be quicker cheaper and easier to get my bloodwork done here in Mexico. So Friday we just walked across the street into the lab and he took my blood and I was out 15 min later. I spent the next couple days trying not to obsess or worry about the results. Then on Monday around 6 I went over and got my results but I read them wrong and I thought is said that my levels are normal and it depressed me something awful. How funny is that. I was sad that I'm "ok". But later that night I read my result off to my mom and turns out they are quite low and as soon as I get home I'm gonna go see a doctor about it. I'm so excited!! I truly pray that this helps!!!
Sunday. Sunday was a good and a hard day for me. I attended a funeral. I was asked to attend a funeral a few weeks ago but it was last minute and I kind of had a break down at the thought of attending a funeral. I really hate funerals. The memories are too fresh. But I was able to get myself to attend this one. A lady in the church lost her sister to, I believe it was a tumor. The funeral was definitely a cultural experience for me. You go and just stand around for a while at the house. Kinda like a viewing and then they have the somebody talk and then we walk to the graveside. We first walk around the house then head to the graveyard. The walk was pretty far and smart me didn't bring water along and it had peaked at 105 that day. I thought I was gonna drop from the heat. When we reached the grave they handed out water bottles but there wasn't near enough for everybody so I didn't get one. A guy must have noticed I wasn't looking good or something because he came and handed me a bottle. I was never so happy to see water! They sang songs and Loren talked a bit and then they lowered her down and poured cement on top. The bawling and the tears really go to me. But I must say the view was AMAZING!!! 
Well that all for now. Sorry for the randomness. And mixed thoughts.
Cheerfully Bethany
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